Older, Wiser, Cynical-er

It's been a long while since I posted.  Not a lot has changed externally in my world.  A lot has changed internally though.  It seemed like the change from 30 to 31 was a big (dare I say it) paradigm shift for me.  I am beginning to understand why people say that they'd never want to relive their 20's and prefer their 30's and beyond.  Now, mind you, my entire 20's were spent married, working and having babies, so it's not like I have this huge, embarrassing adolescence to look back on while cringing.  No, in fact I'm damn proud of everything I did in my 20's, but it wasn't until now, until 31 that I fully realize what I am capable of achieving.  I'm doing pretty good, working in a career, not just a job, having two incredible boys, a nice house, etc, etc.  But I'm missing something.  I'm not sure what it is yet, or maybe I do and I don't want to know.  I'm not sure.  I do know that I'm going back to school to finish my bachelor's degree in psychology and no amount of shit from my husband will stop me.  I think what might quell this weird void is to make out a list of what it is that I still want to do in life and accomplish some.  See if that makes the ache stop.